Seems like some shit I should've learned two or three years ago, but better late than never.
For the past couple of years I've been stuck in this ditch or rut, trying to figure out why I stopped doing stuff. In the beginning, doing shit -- drawing, writing, all that jazz -- seemed routine, and I never had to put too much thought in what I was doing, because there was no real aim; I just like doing artistic shit.
I believe it was only when I started looking at future works as long term projects that my will to do anything started dwindling. And once that started up, I got lazier and lazier. Eventually, I got to the point where it'd be a miracle if I'd gotten anything done in one month, as opposed to one day.
Most of my early watchers -- the majority of which were Mass Effect fans -- would've probably caught onto this by the way I was handling Son of Mindoir and Once More, With Sympathy. Both of those were stories with somewhat planned endings. And I had planned for them to be longer than either one of them are, now.
But I guess that kind of destroyed it (Not really, I could always start another chapter), in the end. When I started looking at them that way, I made myself think that it was a goal I was inevitably never going to reach. Instead of just enjoying it, my mind kept going to "You know you've still got a long way to go before you're done" or "You'll need to make sure what happens here syncs up with the rest of the story." While both of those statements were actually true, they kept coming up until both of em started to sound like "You might as well stop; you're not getting this shit done. 'Specially with you trying to do Athena at the same time."
See, this kind of thinking would've never happened to me when I was just concerned about the now, rather than the later. I would say I should stop considering those works as projects, even if they are. Guess it's something I gotta learn on the way.
Anyway, I'm in the process of attempting to think up a scene for Once More, With Sympathy. This one'll just be words, though. You'll know what I mean when it's up.
I'm also about to color up that Nathan Oliver picture I just uploaded, and make myself a new profile picture. The other two will be done after that.